Going Back Again

Right now I am just wondering if it ever gets any easier? At some point will my heart stop aching every time I drive away? Will it ever seem that everything is under control? Will I ever stop missing them? Will I ever wake up ready and refreshed again? Is it worth it? Will they even remember the time when I did stay at home with them? Are they adjusting well enough? Do they know how much I love them every single moment of every day? Will I ever stop wondering what could have, should have, or would have been? How can I balance it all? Will this eventually feel normal? Do they know I cry? Should I be doing more? Am I going to be able to hold it all together? Is it really all for the best? Should I be doing less? Will my time with them ever feel like enough? Will I ever stop wishing for things to be different? Will I ever stop questioning myself?