Making a Decision

On Monday my former department chair called and offered me a full-time teaching position for the rest of the school year. Since then my head, heart and stomach have been spinning. I am stressed out. I feel like this is literally one of the hardest decisions I have had to make in my life, and it isn't even really my decision - it's our decision. Whatever we decide is going to effect our whole family. If I had my way, I wouldn't do it. I absolutely love staying home with my kids. I get teary-eyed even thinking that for the next six months, I am probably not going to take them to story time at the library, read books before nap time, go on play dates, get them breakfast in the morning, drop them off or pick them up from preschool. My heart aches, but my head knows better. We need the money. We need health insurance. We need to pay off our debt. Logically, this is a really easy decision. Simply take the job. Then why am I a mess?