Day One

So today was the big day - my first day back to work full time. Surprisingly, it was easy to get up and out the door, especially since the kids were still asleep. I felt a tinge of sadness/guilt as I walked out the door, but since I have continued to work a little, today really didn't feel that strange. I simply hopped in the car and was off. That was until Ethan called me. Simply hearing the sleepy, squeaky, innocent "Mommy?" over the cell phone broke my heart. At that moment, I realized I was leaving him (and Emily) behind. I immediately teared up. By the time Ethan finished telling me how excited he was about his new stuffed puppy, I was a mess, yet all I could think of was how my make-up was now ruined! I dabbed my eyes and tried to put my heart back together as I continued my day. I don't think it will ever get easier. Not tomorrow, not next week, not next month or next year. I am a Mommy first, and now I am a working Mom.